Songfic: song by Evanescence
Rating: PG 13
pairing: Willow /Spike
A/N: if ever there was a song suited to a fic about vamps it was this one. It just would not let my soul rest till I wrote it. I hope it's better than what I've attempted so far. And it's a bit AU for Angel. Enjoy.
DISCLAIMER: I wrote this for giggles an grins not profit, Joss God owns the characters and initial series, Evanescence owns the Song. I'm just some poor schlep who has to get her kicks somehow. An this is it!!
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She was listening to the radio as the rain fell on the window. It had been a year to the day since they had fought the first, closed the hell mouth. She had ended up in L.A. working with Angel & co. trying to keep the nasties from taking over the world.
After Sunnyhell had collapsed everyone was shell-shocked. But there were things that simply had to be done. And accomplished they were. Willow's mind was wandering over all that had happened in the past year. The watchers had set up headquarters on the east coast. And were now actively seeking every slayer they could find. She remembered the looks she kept receiving after she had done the spell to activate the Slayers. Her hair had gone completely white. Then had gone back to normal. All except for one streak in the front center of her forehead...if she heard one more "Rogue" joke. She just might have to kill someone. Sighing she turned to look out the window...a year. And of all the things she missed, the people that had died. Of all the souls she longed for ...the one she missed most was that of a demon.
Spike.
He had given his unlife for the world. But still she missed him terribly. They had become good friends. Unknown to him, she had developed feelings above and beyond friendship. Which shocked her completely...after Tara & Kennedy she had decided that relationships just were not her game. 1 year. And she still grieved every day, hour ...minute for him. "I loved him...and I feel so completely alone without him." she whispered to herself as a tear matched the rain on the window. Sliding down her cheek...
Angel watched his redheaded friend in silence. She didn't know he was there. Clearing his throat "still grieving for that childe of mine? I wish he had known how you felt. I think he felt the same for you. I wish he had known what true love was." sitting down next to willow, he grabs her into a big bear hug. He holds her, as her grief overwhelms her once again. Shedding his own tears over his lost childe, together they grieved...as the song played...
"How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home"
Willow slowly began to sing.
" Wake me up inside, wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become"
Angel held willow. Listening to her heart breath the words of the song in his ear. Listening with his soul and Demon alike. Holding her closer, shielding her from the pain.
"Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breath into me and make me real
bring me to life"
sobbing the words, she continues...voice cracking with her quiet sobs...singing her pain to the world. To the one who would understand it the most.
" Wake me up inside, wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run before I come undone
Save me from the nothing I've become"
standing outside the room...Lorne feels his heart breaking for his friend, as her heart and soul are laid bare to him...knowing Angle must be feeling ...grieving. Hurting every bit as much as Willow. He listens more.
" frozen inside without your touch without
your love
Darling only you are the life among the dead "
Angel. Listens to willow. Hears he, and sends a silent prayer to the PTB for his friend. Who he now knows is dying inside, inch by bloody inch. He sees' her soul drift away a little everyday. He wonders when she will just float away for good. He kiss's the top of her head as silent tears fall for her soul as well.
Hearing as much as he can take, Lorne begins to pray as he had never prayed before. For his 2 friends, hoping somehow that the PTB would help their Champions survive the loss of their hearts soul.
Willow jerks as the next verse begins.
"All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front
of me"
not knowing who it is singing she slowly lifts her head, as she sings the counter part to the words
"I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything"
again she hears a male voice singing the words. Seeming to come from thin air. Willow stands looking around searching for the voice.
"Without a thought, without a voice, without
a soul
don't let me die here there must be something
more"
she breathes the words. Repeatedly. Slowly louder and louder.
"Bring me to life"
the room seems to be filling with a calm blue light that slowly grows, with every second.
Angel begins hearing a voice he hadn't heard in over a year. Paling he stands with willow..."wills?"
shaking her head towards Angel. She continues singing and a mans voice is heard singing the words with her exactly with the song.
"(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become "
turning to where the voice seems to be centralized, Willow watches as a figure slowly comes into focus.
She whispers "Spike?"
Willow reaches one hand out slowly, as they both sing...
" Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life"
reaching back to her ...and becoming more solid as they continue to sing.
"Bring me to life"
hands closer and closer
"Bring me to life"
he comes fully to himself and solidly real as they grasp hands. Fingers intertwining with the others,
Spike again whispers to willow.
"Bring me to life"
then kiss's the hand holding his.
"Bring me to life"
the end